Crimson is my right, Azure is my left.

It seems my fantasy illusions are becoming more and more frequent lately... That probably means somewhere deep inside me (beyond even my own detection) I must be pretty stressed about leaving.

From time to time, I suddenly see or even feel red, passionate flames burning on my right arm and blue, serene flames surrounding my left arm. Then, I have this urge to hurl the red flames forward like fireballs and slam the blue flames onto the ground, creating a shockwave and a barrier of blue flames.

There has also been that time when I suddenly just closed my eyes and imagined a black ring floating around each wrist. Then, I would swing my arms in a vertical curve and the black rings would disintegrate into shiny dust and a pair of swords will materialise from the sparkling powder into my hands.

And there was this one time at work when my wrists suddenly hurt and when I looked, a demon was standing on each side, grasping chains attached to my wrists. I clenched my fists, and forcibly pulled the demons towards me. And finally, I would grab their faces and crush them and watch as they fade into black shadows.

Well, the above were some examples I remember. There were more but the first and second examples have happened many times. I've probably even forgotten a few times they happened. I'm a little worried about my mental state, but I am interested as to how far my fantasies can and will go.

And don't worry, I'm pretty much still sane. My fantasies don't involve me killing anyone except those demons. I'm not even sure if I killed them or they just disappeared for now. Stein-hakase, it looks like I'll be joining you for a while.