This is wrong, completely WRONG!!

No matter how many times I read my post, it just doesn't sound right! The idea is there, the explanations and examples aren't incorrect, but it just doesn't feel like what I realised yesterday. I didn't get that shock (kind of like when you discover the solution to a puzzle you've been working on for years) I feel every time I think of it. Either I'm incapable or the meaning is just too hard to convey with words.

To me, and probably to everyone else, it just sounds like I'm saying I'm immature because I get angry at insignificant factors. That isn't all of it! There's something more than that, but I can't seem to expand any further than what I've said. It's not writer's block, it's more like no such words exist inside me for what I'm trying to say.

The way all of you replied me is proof enough that what I'm trying to say isn't what I typed in that post.

Youngblood said through MSN, "Since when did you become so mature?"

That response was already way off track from what I meant in that post. I'm not mature at all. If he understood what I realised yesterday, he wouldn't have said that. Something more along the lines of "You're right. Me too." would have been a little more appropriate, but that isn't exactly how he should have replied either.

chengyee said, "You sound like the old me."

That is wrong too. Anyone who realised the same thing I did yesterday couldn't possibly have reverted to a childish self. That realisation should have been a strong barrier against immaturity, like a 10cm thick adamantium wall preventing the way back. Unless if you meant that you've matured even more since then and have understood much more than me now. But (Don't take this the wrong way) I highly doubt it. I really didn't mean that in an insulting way.

Winger said, "Now, you can shake hands with him and kick my shiny ass."

That means what I wanted to tell him didn't get to him as well. He should have been affected the most if he understood what I want to say. I don't exactly know how, I just have the feeling that it will. Besides, I've already clearly stated that I'm not picking sides this time. I'm not going to take part in a fight where neither side is right.

Darn... I understand what I learnt. I can even grasp the whole idea with my whole being. So why can't I put them into words? Could this possibly be one of those life lessons that can never be taught to others? Such lessons are just not fair if you ask me, but I guess they have the strongest effect on anyone who learns them.

Sigh... I'll try working on getting the message out more clearly. In the meantime, I'll go check how much (not many) people have misunderstood my previous message.